Have you ever had one of those days where you wake up motivated, ready to tackle the day, only to suddenly feel overwhelmed, run down and just... stuck? That is me right now. I have been working on this post for a couple of hours now, and what I can only assume is equivalent to writer's block, is how I feel right now, and not just with this post. I had a list of things to get done, and it wasn't a lot of even big items, or even a lot. I wanted to get the house straightened, floors swept and some dusting, but I just couldn't do it. If you're like me, you read that sentence and said "and then I look around and see a mess, but have no energy to clean it, then get upset with myself because I have no energy, which makes me more upset..." it's a vicious cycle that never seems to want to end.
If you have felt like this, have you ever wondered what causes it? Is it stress? Anxiety? Is it our everyday life in general and we are just bored? I read a short article today that suggested that is all that we are, is bored, and that is what causes us to be in, or get in, an emotional rut. I don't think it's that's simple. There can be many different things that contribute to the feeling of being stuck in a rut. From my own personal experiences, stress is a big one for me; and it is everything from stress from work to stress from home life, to stress from my animals (3 dogs and 2 cats).
It is ruts like these that I struggle with how to cope. I’ll get these ideas of what I think will help me cope, and they’ll be great ideas, but I very rarely, if ever, follow through. Why is that? Why is following through such a struggle? Don’t get me wrong, some days are better than others, where I will write down my ideas, broken into smaller ideas, and get them done. Like, instead of putting, “clean the house” I’ll write down “sweep the living room floor“ and “dust the entertainment unit”. A lot of times breaking them down like that, helps a lot. And not just with household chores, I can attest that breaking down big ideas (and I am using “ideas” instead of “tasks” because it is less intimidating for me) into smaller ideas doesn’t make me feel overwhelmed all the time.